now is the roar of the wind through the pines on the northern california coast. i survived the desert and the long road through the mountains(and received a certificate of survival from the camp ladies) terrified at the steep hills the sheer dropoffs the rain and the fog. i am afraid of mountain driving, especially on roads too narrow for my large car with no shoulders or railings. now i must rethink travel plans to stick to more"normal" pathways. or? the coast near mendicino is giant: giant cliffs, trees, rocks,waves. i am avoiding the fear i felt. i did not want to roll off the mountain and die today.