now is return to the east,bakersfield today,flagstaff tomorow. the drive from portland was full mountains, nice wide road, mt shasta! and the beautiful town of roseburg, oregon. then miles of almond trees in bloom and crops growing, signs asking "it it wasting water to grow food?" and "dams or trains?" i am reminded of the texas panhandle.I keep getting the  5 of swords anxiety/release of anxiety. am i doing the right thing? just drifting enjoying the leisure and the scenery and not wondering(or always wondering)what is this life now?"ordinary men hate solitude, but the Master makes use of it, embracing his aloneness, realizing he is one with the whole universe"(tao ching 42) i am not a Master but i am using my solitude to examine myself, my place in this new world.